The world is a hard place, and it doesn’t owe you anything. You can work hard, stay late, take initiative and still fail. You can diet and exercise and still fail. You can love and be loved and have it end. You can try as hard as you want, but failure is always an option. There is an upside though, life isn’t just filled with darkness, because you can get up, wipe yourself off and try again.
There are a lot of hard times coming your way, a lot of friendships you thought would last a lifetime are going to end very abruptly and it is going to be very difficult to build new friendships. You are thinking of going to college and I beg you, please do not bother putting yourself in debt for an arts diploma. If you are going to invest in your education, please invest it in something that has broad career possibilities attached. Your arts diploma has never gotten you anywhere, in fact you are still struggling under the weight of student debt because of your shortsightedness.
Let’s talk about attitude. You are prove to believing that you are capable of slipping yourself through any door, wether it be open or closed, and it may have worked well so far, but it won’t anymore. You have to prove yourself to get anything, and no one is going to give you what you want without a steep price. You are arrogant, self centred and rude, get over yourself, you are not better than anyone by a long shot. Humble yourself and learn to learn from others without feeling like you have to prove that you are clever. On that note, no one is ever going to think you’re the smartest person in the room, so get the idea that you are out of your head.
Gasoline is expensive, cars are expensive, rent is expensive, bills are expensive… save your money and don’t waste it on pizza, poutine and rum. Be smart with your bank account and set saving goals as soon as you can. You never know when a rainy day will hit and you will regret not being smarter with your money.
Lean into love. Love your body, love your family, love your friends. Learn to love mundane jobs, chores and errands. Being miserable about the necessities in life, you are establishing a miserable life. Treat yourself with small things when you feel down, it is an investment in your happiness. Call your mom every week or so, she worries about you.
Don’t invest time in people who mistreat you, habits that are destructive and places that won’t help build you. Learn the value of positive people and habits, as they will help you live a happier life.
I don’t know what else to say to you, but please be humble and accept help when it is offered. Offer help to others, spend time painting and please live a productive life.